ask a second time—know what I’m talking about? Darkness
that—and there’s always this whispering thought, “What
have I done wrong,” as we flounder around. Well, let me
tell you what not to do, okay?
Eleventh verse. I’m gonna dispense with this in a hurry
because the message is what you’re supposed to do.
“Behold, all ye that kindle a fire, that compass
yourselves about with sparks: walk in the light of your
fire, and the sparks that ye have kindled. This shall
ye have of mine hand; ye shall lie down in sorrow.” I
could, I wanna dispense with this quickly if I can
because it’s hard to, because it’s so typical of the way
we react to the obstacles along the path and to the
darkness that comes. I know how Gene Scott’s done it
for years. Those that know me well and are around me a
lot will probably laugh at this, because I smoke a pipe
and smoke a cigar and began getting certain kinds of
lighters, little pencil pipe lighters, years ago from
the friends who supply me the tobacco and the cigars.
Those are the damnedest irritating things you’ve ever
seen. They will always go out when you need them most.
They’re little pencil…I wish I had one—see I never have
them either when I need them. I’ll carry four or five
of them with me and just when I need to make a great
impression by pulling this fancy lighter out, I get so
frustrated I want to go back to flicking my BIC! Those
things never fail you.
So those who know me well will laugh at this because I’m
gonna describe my tendency in figurative language when
the darkness comes. I can light a match faster than
anybody, which figuratively is saying.... You know, I
have a guy who works for me—he typifies what I’ve been
with God for years. That’s why I recognize it so
quickly. Takes one to know one. He’s a guy who works
for me—I tell a classic story.
We flew up to my home on Lake Almanor. We have a car at
the airport. We’re there for the first time in the
spring to open up the house so I know there’s no
groceries in the house. We stop in the little—the car,
it’s a wonderful car, it starts no matter what the
weather. You can leave it in 10 feet of snow and dig it
out and it starts. They don’t make cars like that any
more. It’s an old rickety station wagon but it starts.
So we get in the station wagon with my guys who come up
to help open the house up and we drive to Chester, the
little town maybe a mile from the airport, before we go
to my house. And we’re in the gas station refilling the
car and I know we don’t have any groceries in the house
so I say to—what shall I call him? I don’t want to
identify him. Is there a name that I can use? I don’t
have anybody named Jacob, so let’s call him Jacob,
though everybody that works with me knows who he is.
“Jacob….” Now there’s a grocery store across the
street. It’s a big four-lane road going through town,
cars coming and going, and we’re at the service station
on the other side. I say “Jacob, go over to that
grocery store…” and I was gonna say, “and get the
following things.” But when I said ‘go’ he started
moving, and when I said ‘over to the grocery store’ he
was turning that direction and by the time I got to the
end of the sentence he was across the road. No idea
what I wanted to buy at the grocery store, but he was
going to the grocery store.
That’s me with God. That’s Jacob in the Old Testament.
There was nothing wrong with what Jacob set out to do.
God made it clear before Jacob and Esau were born “Jacob
I loved; Esau I hated.” But Jacob set out to encompass
God’s will in his own strength. He couldn’t wait on God
to work it out. He…and when he coupled with his mother
in conspiracy, the two of them could always figure out
how to get God’s work done before God got there. His
name means “heel-